Thursday the 14th, 2:42 a.m., canāt sleep.
Letās try jotting down a few lines, who knowsā¦
The one of the two whoās known me for ages had already figured out I was about to answer in my usual caustic and biting yet objective way.
The other hadnāt, and right away took it badly, then he understood⦠maybe.
With the two ācolleaguesā pushing seventy and retiring soon, we were talking, standing by the coffee machine, about women, football, but mostly about age and all that comes with it.
Iād already started off with what, for them, were fairly traumatic reflections.
The naĆÆve one pipes up with a āI feel in great shape, Iāve started going to the gymā and other self-motivational crap. Useless and pathetic discussions just to avoid admitting reality, namely getting old.
Letās be clear: for me, from forty upwards youāre already old; I might give a special bonus up to forty-five, but only as a real exception.
My speech was, of course, final.
āDonāt get lost in pointless analyses: youāre old wrecks. I am too, let alone you guys. But for you itās much simpler, since itās just normal time passing. Nothing has changed in substance: you never amounted to shit and now you still donāt, just older; in a certain sense, if you think about it, itās even better⦠thereās an excuse, or a supposed one. For me itās a real tragedy: I was someone and now Iām not anymore, and not just because of my age. For me, it really is a tragedy.ā
The other ācolleagueā burst out laughing⦠āyou had it coming,ā he said to the āfit decrepit one.ā
I know, itās got nothing to do with it⦠thatās why I keep going.
This vital and necessary drive and desire to āliveā goes hand in hand with the phobia of being remembered.
Wretched foolishness. No one will be remembered and, anyway, never as they would want. And then being remembered⦠who the hell cares. There are people who lived little and lived badly but are mentioned in history books. Gee, lucky them!
This is sort of on topicā¦
My last obsession was writing something about DeB, but then the right occasion came along at just the right time, at least in this nighttime delirium.
Among all the garage rabble and similar stuff I listen or re-listen to, many would deserve a - useless yet noble - mention on Deb.
But my urge has rewarded and will only reward very few.
The CD starts - I always only read about the band later, so I donāt get misled - and itās a jolt of wellbeing.
Very odd for me; sensations like these almost never last more than an hour, except for some epic nights back in the day⦠which often ended at the ER.
Well, the serious reviewers must be thinking, finally heāll talk to us about the album.
But like hell Iām going to talk about the album, you can listen to it yourselves if you feel like it.
You donāt need to talk about the work itself, you just need to believe you can get there after some weird and even misleading hints. Sort of a game, come on.
Anyway, something should be said. These āKilroy!ā are Swedish and the album came out in 2005. I immediately checked to see if they had more, only to find out this is the first and last one.
Garage and Sweden are a combination that never fails, even when they do crap, shit doesnāt stink and the turd stays whole and perfect.
Twelve pearls that really bring you back to that magic five-year spell. The sixties, that isādo I really need to explain everything!
A garage beat of great class, tightly embraced by Soul and Mod.
Nomads, Prisoners, Creeps and that crowd, to avoid listing thousands. āBorn Losersā, in short⦠but beat, very beatā¦
But thereās also an affinity with Australian power or college rock.
Total wellbeing, sure for a brief while, but to be enjoyed intensely.
Itās a marvel, even for old wrecks, when almost all you have left is your memoriesā¦
And these āKilroy!ā too, of course, are lost in absolute oblivion, as is normal and right. But carved into Deb, a huge honor. Too bad theyāll never know, or maybe⦠who knows.
A hug to all of you, you foul-smelling wrecks and nothing else.
And throw away those disgusting crappy slippers.
Thursday, 3:21 a.m., canāt sleep, but Iām laughing by myself and itās wonderfulā¦