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Loneliness feels like it's taking root inside fertile ground such as the heart, which is slowly suffocated by a tourniquet, completely stopping the circulation of every blood flow and that oxygen, so vital.
Antony’s voice is not only inimitable but also of a painful, unparalleled beauty, an emotional suffering that you either love indescribably or avoid altogether, it is part of a still life yet lush nature.
Listening to "I Am a Bird Now" is the essence of a journey into a celestial and graceful body, obscured by unpredictable fate, it’s a reality little known because avoided out of fear, it’s a realistic dream and if it manages to capture your innermost part, then you will have to add it to the pantry of your emotions. His music is a continuous pulse of life agglomerated to the despair that cries out for help, a conscious and irreparable pain, consuming you day by day making the hours you have left to live colorless, like on the album cover, the "ambiguous" beauty of Candy Darling, Andy Warhol’s muse, captured by Peter Hujar on a hospital bed before leukemia took her away at the age of 30.
Ten tracks, like ten real daily stories lived by any of us, atrophied melancholies, distorted thoughts, intolerable misunderstandings, insensible guilty and praiseworthy attributions, desires that fight in fragile and uncertain daily life, changing and transforming through it, in search of a warm and indispensable embrace, full of soul, blues, and gospel. These tracks slowly insinuate on a sentimental epidermal level, tearing apart every presumption and exalting love.
Hope There's Someone - an angelic wingspan where organ, piano, a desperate and profoundly mournful voice drag you into an abyss;
My Lady Story pop-soul of crystalline fragility, piano, violins, and flutes hold hands in paralyzing ambiguity;
For Today I Am A Boy - dramatic sustained dialogues between piano and emphatic voice;
Man Is The Baby - an absolute masterpiece, piano, violins, and cello cannot be compared to anything else, because in this track, they represent the strongest pain I have ever heard;
You Are My Sister - the inevitable sweet drop that escapes from an eye flooded by a river in pain, the duet with Boy George is chilling, never have I heard Boy so "serious and profound"
What Can I Do? - Rufus Wainwright's voice is a bodily exploration;
Fistful Of Love - the introduction and guitar of Antony's "godfather, Lou Reed," is endless and rising like the track itself
Spiralling - a track with Devendra Banhart, chimes and oriental calls caressed, as always, by a very sweet piano;
Free At Last - a prayer told over the messages of Morse code and notes of a paralyzed piano, introducing the final song;
Bird Girl - Candy Darling has flown away forever, no longer burdened by her corporeal pain.
We always and infinitely need these masterpieces and these Artists, if the manifestation of their pain is understood and reflective, then they make us more visual and consequently more beautiful inside. An album that cannot go unnoticed because it is preeminent.
Tracklist Lyrics Samples and Videos
01 Hope There's Someone (04:21)
Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, will I go
Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired
There's a ghost on the horizon
When I go to bed
How can I fall asleep at night
How will I rest my head
Oh I'm scared of the middle place
Between light and nowhere
I don't want to be the one
Left in there, left in there
There's a man on the horizon
Wish that I'd go to bed
If I fall to his feet tonight
Will allow rest my head
So here's hoping I will not drown
Or paralyze in light
And godsend I don't want to go
To the seal's watershed
Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, Will I go
Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired
02 My Lady Story (03:33)
My lady story
My lady story
My lady story
Is one of annihilation
My lady story
Is one of breast amputation
My lady story
My lady story
I'm a hole in love
I'm a bride on fire
I am twisted
Into a starve of wire
My lady story
My lady story
Lie in road for you
And I've been your slave
My womb's an ocean full of
Grief and rage
My lady story
My lady story
My lady story
My lady story
And still you're coaxing me
To come on out and live
Well I'm a crippled dog
I've got nothing to give
My lady story
My lady story
My lady story
My lady story
I'm so broken babe
But I want to see
Some shining eye
Some of my beauty
My lostest beauty
My lostest beauty
03 For Today I Am a Boy (02:36)
One day I’ll grow up, I’ll be a beautiful woman.
One day I’ll grow up, I’ll be a beautiful girl.
One day I’ll grow up, I’ll be a beautiful woman.
One day I’ll grow up, I’ll be a beautiful girl.
But for today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
One day I’ll grow up, I’ll feel the power in me.
One day I’ll grow up, of this I’m sure.
One day I’ll grow up, I know whom within me.
One day I’ll grow up, feel it full and pure.
But for today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy
05 You Are My Sister (03:59)
You are my sister, we were born
So innocent, so full of need
There were times we were friends but times I was so cruel
Each night I'd ask for you to watch me as I sleep
I was so afraid of the night
You seemed to move through the places that I feared
You lived inside my world so softly
Protected only by the kindness of your nature
You are my sister
And I love you
May all of your dreams come true
We felt so differently then
So similar over the years
The way we laugh the way we experience pain
So many memories
But theres nothing left to gain from remembering
Faces and worlds that no one else will ever know
You are my sister
And I love you
May all of your dreams come true
I want this for you
They're gonna come true (gonna come true)
08 Spiralling (04:25)
Well and I can and I die
I can, I die
Well and I'm freezing
I'm freezing
Well it's a sly curse
A sly curse
Well and I'm spiralling
I'm spiralling
In the broken heart game
I've got all my files
I've got all my ones to choose from
I gave waiting for you
Waiting for you
I'm ravage like a dog in heat
I'm gone, gone
???
I am, I'm undone
I am undone
Where go, where now
I can't stand
If I can, I can die
I'm freezing
It's like us
I'm spiralling
In my cruel life God poisoned
I was born old
Not a girl and not a jewel
I am,I am some son
I am some bum
Where go, where now
I can't stand
If I can, I can die
I'm freezing
It's like us
I'm spiralling
10 Bird Gerhl (03:14)
I am a bird girl now
I've got my heart
Here in my hands now
I've been searching
For my wings some time
I'm gonna be born
Into soon the sky
'Cause I'm a bird girl
And the bird girls go to heaven
I'm a bird girl
And the bird girls can fly
Bird girls can fly
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