My soul wanders in the darkness of the night without knowing which path to follow. I am now at a dark crossroads, never having been here before, here, at the end or the beginning of everything. In this nocturnal scene, I find myself again in the spirit that is leaving the body. I am like a torch that has not yet decided to stop burning. And the thoughts overwhelm me, besiege me, where will I go now? What will become of me now that I am leaving life? But above all, how will I separate from you, you who are still alive?

I need to give you a sign of my presence. Even though I am leaving this world, I am not leaving you. You who are sleeping in the depths of this silent night. And so I try to become air, wind, breath. In this silence, I make noise, somehow trying to reach you because I was not able to say goodbye in advance. But now you should not wake up, rest, maybe in a dream, for starters, I will make myself present and gift you with my caresses.

And in this dream, I will draw for you what only you can understand. Something that connects me inescapably to you. And that you would enjoy reliving. But you will not see me as I really am, otherwise my memory could hurt you more than necessary. Perhaps I will paint the sky with white clouds if some seagulls do me the courtesy of helping. Remember, I have never been good at drawing. But you, please, keep sleeping, do not wake up now, I promise you will be happy to find me in your dream. The message I want to leave you is unique and unequivocal: I will always be there for you, even now that I can no longer touch you.

And if these images are not enough for you, then I will make myself heard through the sounds, through the music we listened to together. I become wind again, if I am allowed, and try to be a melody for you, moving through the trees and windows of your room. Now we are far apart, you and I, I understand your sadness. But, believe me, I am sad too. I wish I could see you one last time, but this is not granted to me. I miss you to death. But now I feel happy again because, somehow, I have managed to reach you once more.

Love. What I felt for you was love. Perhaps many cannot understand, but separating from you was even worse than death itself. And now that I am on the other side, I must make sure you always feel me close. I will be present in your dreams when you fall asleep, but I will bring to life the memories that remind you of me when you are awake. Thus, even a simple object devoid of a soul will now be charged with the memory of me.

Sleep, sleep, my love. Tomorrow it will be me who will wake you. At the end of your dream, when morning comes, I will give you a kiss. And from that moment, wherever you go on the long path of your days, I will be with you.

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